Living with Testosterone Deficiency

I was 50yrs old when this all started,no I take that back. I was 50yrs old when this was found. I was given the patch,gel and the injections. After all was said and done,all I received was a knot,yes a knot on my prostrate,now don,t that beat all. No more replacement of the life substaining drug for me. I feel for those of you that received a rash as your side effect from the replacement drug,but I think if we were in a poker game I think I would be one up on you.(don,t mind me,i have to try an tell a little joke sometime) Now day I don,t find many things very funny. I am also married with a family, my youngest will go off to colledge this fall, my wife and I were looking toward this for a long time. With 6 kids between us, we never had much private time in our own home,(if you get my meaning). Now I guest I,ll go out and buy 2 white rockers and sat them on the screen in deck that I lost intrest in and never finished. This is my new life style, of not being able to finich anything I start. OH What A Life. (down and out) But I still hold on to Gods Unchanging Hand everyday Somedays I must admit i find it haed to face that young full of hopes and dreams girl I married. The devil tries to work on your mine at times, if your not careful, he will try to make you think your wifr could have did more to help you or she could beieg doing more now. The devil is a liyer and the truth is not in him. Each and everyday I pray that my wife don,t leave me for all the neg things I do and say everyday,of which I mean none of them.